Dependence

All feels as though it will not settle,

Tightness in my chest feels upsetting,

Soon all that we hold tight may burst like a kettle,

I am sure of it; I’ve already placed my betting.

Hold on is what my heart says to me,

But my mind repeats no it will not stop,

My soul fights to tell you be free,

My memories alter my vision & make me want to pop.

I send these soft words for you in length,

Let us not worry about such petty stress,

Challenges are made to test our strength,

We have each other for more, so we may fret less.

Cold Black Nights

In the cold black night I quiver, the cold brushes along my skin and sends me many shivers.  I cannot fall asleep, I roll over and over as reach for you but alas you are not by my side this night.  Oh, how I long to have you there and squeeze you tight, the hour to come to the realization seems to last forever and I keep finding myself awake.  Do not let this be again anytime soon, for my soul cries and cannot sleep peacefully, not even dreams can keep my mind satisfied as it races to find you, my heart tells the truth, this is no fake.  My only hope is to find you within a dream; I search every corner of my thoughts.  The search goes on for what seems like days and finally there you are waiting for me, I run, I sprint, if only I could fly and be there by your side in a moment but when I reach and grab on to you and ready myself to embrace you, my alarm goes off and the night is lost without you.  That day will be long for I will not see your lovely face until this evening, that moment cannot come soon enough for me.  As you sleep and dream of me as I think of you, perhaps you will have better luck of finding me.

As Long As You Have Me

Let the sun shine upon you this day, let the flowers bloom in every beautiful way

Know though that when all this beauty comes out too, none of it compares to you

I want you to smile for awhile, as you should come to know my cares I will show

My spirits I will lift for you are near and as long as you have me I will be here

Our Love

My heart floats like a cloud, my soul roars loud
Join me and you will see
Then you will know as I show
Our love fits like a glove

A Bunch of old Writings have been Found

I'm so glad to announce that I have found many of my old writings and poems and am happy to share these with you, I will be proof reading them and make sure they look okay for the most part but I will try and leave them untouched.  These I came up with over several months hear and there, some are based on crushes, some are to inspire and others are of love and lastly some are of despair, in either case they should be a good read.

Lost At Sea (taken from old blog)

There once was a young man who woke up on a boat, out at sea. The man looked over the edges of his boat which was quite large and empty, and only all alround was water. Waves after waves beat along the side, the man scared of dying did all he could on his own to control the boat. With no one around to help, he seemed to struggle and was quite upset and distressed of his state. Several days had gone by of being beaten down by rain and waves, until finally the weather had cleared and he stumbled upon land.

The land that he came to was so unfamiliar to him, though the images of where he came from seemed as though they were from a far off sight, this new place still left him unsure and he was not at ease in the new surroundings. The style of people were different, the way they acted was unfamiliar and yet they all were kind and accepting of him. The man was still troubled about this new place as though someone of his past was watching him and would make feel worried of his new surroundings. Soon time passed and the man made many new friends and said to them take care, I must travel to new destination.

Fighting off the weather and waves were so much easier this time around, not only because he had faced it before but also because of the new confidence the last land he visited, gave him a boost. Over several next days, he did the same as before, managed wave after wave until he reached a new land. This land was also quite new to him, for it was all women working, there were a couple hierarches that were men but mostly all women worked for them. Unsure of this new place as well, he met a young woman that was fair and sweet, she to was once lost on the sea as she was escaping a crazy husband but now she and her four children had found peace.

Learing of this new culture the man became more confident and figured it was best to move on and see what else was beyond the sea. The man left the land and set for the sea, wave upon wave crashed and the weather was far worst than ever before but the man was determined to find new adventure on the sea. Although he had done all that he could, in the end it was just to much for the man and the boat flipped. The man sinking in the water started to drown, choking on water he became unconscious, starting to flail with all of his might, consciousness came back to him. But he was no longer lost at sea, he was in his old bed in the middle of no where and stuck inland because he never went on any new adventures to get lost on.

**I wrote this tying in my new joy of acting in rocky horror picture show and also tied in my job at the current time.  I like this piece in particular because it described me in my early twenties.  I always stayed home and never went out and at 25, I finally adventured out of the house, joined a cast and started doing something fun.  I wrote it to illustrate to people who are home-bodies and never leave the house, then you'll never find out about all the wonderful things that could be out there waiting for you.

BFF

Wow, two years have gone by

Time surely does indeed fly

My words will be quick

But I hope they shall stick

All that we work for is put to the test

I really wish I was at my best

For you deserve great in all

I certainly hope you do not fall

Follow the wind and set sail

I hope I never cause you to fail

Though we are great friends

I hope to know you ‘til the ends

Though inside I weep and I cry

For you I will always continue to try

I want to be around you each day

Hopefully time will let us just stay

We may have an argument fight

Most conversations make my life bright

Our time together grows strong

Best friend without a doubt you belong

I have now just carried on

Soon this poem will be gone

But soon the day will raise the sun

And things with you continue to be fun

Written For My Best Friend and roommate Sammy J.